Tonic and Me: Traversing the Winter From Hell

There is good news and bad news about getting old with cystic fibrosis.  The good news is that I am getting old with CF!  How great is that?  Although it is happening to more and more people as medical care gets better and the median age of survival creeps upward, it still surprises me every time I have a birthday.  I laugh at my wrinkles, chuckle at hot flashes, and marvel at the fact that I look, well, middle aged.

Living with an unpredictable illness is not all mirth and laughter, though.  Some aspects of getting older are a bit more frustrating, at least for me.  This is where Tonic, a new iPhone/iPad app, enters my story.  As you probably know, staying healthy with CF requires more and more effort with age.  There are more medications to take, more treatments to do, more effort is required to stay fit, to eat well, to manage CFRD, to get enough sleep, enough water, to do whatever it takes to make the plumbing system work well, remember appointments for the doctors and port flushes, to do…pretty much everything.  Yet, just as the “CF care complication” factor increases, the ability of the mind (mine, at least) to keep track of it all begins its downward descent.  This is poor design, but it is what it is.

I noticed it first with Advair.  I can never remember if I have taken it.  I don’t know… I seem to have a mental block.  The block then spread to enzymes, vitamins, children’s names, books I’ve read, etc.  While it’s much cheaper to be able to read the same book (and be entertained) multiple times, too many shots of ProAir or too many Pancrelipase capsules can be problematic.

I have officially dubbed this past winter, “the winter from hell.”  For some reason, I had three episodes of pneumonia with resulting rounds of home IV antibiotics over the span of eight months.  If this wasn’t enough, I cultured MRSA recently, so each round of IV’s included three different medications, all through IV access.  IV meds must be refrigerated of course, and when they come in Entermates (as two of mine did), they need to be removed from the refrigerator a few hours before being used.  When you forget to do this, 1) brrrr, and, 2) the infusion takes forever.  Not to mention that during exacerbations, I do three treatments per day, try to sleep, try to remember to eat (when I have no appetite), and take the usual oral meds, supplements, and vitamins.  I also have follow up appointments with doctors and need to get to the lab for blood draws three times each week.  Did I mention the port dressing changes? I literally needed a flow chart to traverse through my day, or I would forget an essential item.  Of course, most people get admitted to the hospital for this rather intensive treatment time, where, at least in theory, they keep track of these things.  Wink.  But I hate hospitals, and only go in if it is absolutely mandatory.

Enter Tonic.  As luck would have it, I was able to beta test Tonic this “winter from hell.” Tonic is an app that helps you to remember and track whatever you need to track.  Setting up Tonic is a simple task.  You simply make a list of all that you want to remember and track.  It took me about 30 minutes because my list of “tonics” was enormous.  When it was done, though, my trusty little iPad would bleep whenever I had to do something.  Take out med (bleep).  Infuse this (bleep).  Take this (bleep).  Eat (bleep).  Weigh yourself (bleep).  Eat more (bleep).  Trust me, the thing was bleeping all day, every day of each exacerbation.  But I was so completely on track!  I missed nothing.  Nor did I do or take anything more than I was supposed to, because you check off each “tonic” as you do or take it.  This is a very satisfying property of Tonic for anal compulsive people who like checking things off lists (like me).

Second, remember that the idea is to make your life easier, not to add another chore to your day.  When my life is so complicated that I really need help, I use Tonic.  But other times (like now) when things are pretty good, I let Tonic fade somewhat into the background.  It still reminds me, but I turn off the “bleep” alarm and don’t always check off all the activities or enter a lot of data.  You will find your own balance.

In summary, Tonic is just what I needed at just the right time.  I would recommend it to anyone, whether you have a complicated regimen like mine, or just want to track a few things.  If you decide to give Tonic a try, let me give you two hints.  First, use it for all of the things you do for your health.  Everything. Really.  Meds, sleep, exercise, nutrition, water intake, everything you can think of that you know you want to do to be at the top of your game.  For instance, Tonic even reminds me to journal, to stretch my hamstring muscles, and to meditate.

You can find Tonic on the web at http://www.tonicselfcare.com.

 

 

The Perfect Workout

 

After living 50 years as a fitness nerd, I have a few ideas about what constitutes a perfect workout for me.  Of course, this all depends on which “me” shows up to exercise that day.  Is it the “feeling great” me, the “getting back up on my horse after a round of IV’s” me, or the “not exactly sick, but not feeling at my peak” me?  The right workout for each situation will be vastly different, but the basic constituents of the hour or so at the gym are the same.

Is there a “perfect workout” for you?  Yes, but I guarantee it is unique to you, and unique to you on this particular day.  From the 10,000 ft point of view, the “perfect workout” is the one that you will do, consistently, and if not enjoy, at least not abhor. It should leave you feeling tired in a good way, so that you know you did some work, but not so exhausted that you dread the next encounter with your inner athlete.  And if you live with CF or some other chronic illness that waxes and wanes, the perfect workout is a moving target. Some days, 20 minutes on the elliptical is the right amount, while other days, 5 minutes on the stationary bike is what your body needs.  On really awesome days, a 5-mile hike in the woods fits the bill perfectly.

But whatever state your body is in, the components of each workout should be the same, modified to suit your body, with its particular issues.  Each component is important, and the order that you complete each component matters.  I’m going to run briefly through each, and offer some suggestions for specific exercises that work for me and might also benefit you.

The order is as follows:

soft tissue work

mobility exercises

corrective exercises or “pre-hab”

movement preparation or active stretching

strength training

cardio or “metabolic conditioning”

stretching (passive)

nutrition

 

Yes, I put nutrition in there at the end, because at least for me, it is vitally important to feed my muscles nutritious food including both carbs and protein very soon after exercise.  Experts say a ratio of 4:1 carbohydrate to protein is what you should shoot for.  You can do this very easily by drinking some chocolate milk, or eating a peanut butter sandwich.  It doesn’t have to be complicated, but it does have to happen.

So, let’s go through the actual workout.

Soft Tissue:

This consists of a:bout 10 minutes of foam rolling or using a tennis or lacrosse ball in areas of muscle and connective tissue that is excessively tight.  You know an area needs to be rolled when it is uncomfortable to do so.  If you don’t feel discomfort, you are good to go on to the next spot.  I generally start with a ball to my feet (ouch), and then go to the foam roller for calves, hamstrings and glutes.   I then flip over and do my quadriceps.  Then I take out the magic “peanut,” my extremely complicated and expensive device that I now absolutely cannot live without.  With this, all my tension dissipates from my back, as it remembers how to extend after my day of sitting, coughing, and typing. That’s it!

As I said, I’m fifty.  I have accumulated a lot of tight areas.  You may not need this much, or you may need more.  Only you will know, by trial and error.

Mobility Exercises:

This is also not complicated and we are talking about joints here. Having good mobility simply means that you are able to take each joint through its natural range of motion.  Each joint is different, of course.  The knee joint shouldn’t be able to traverse a circle, while the ankle joint should (ha…tell that to my ankles!).  Take a survey of your body.  You will be able to tell which joints are tight.  Work on those.  Also, do some range of motion in the joints that you intend to use in your workout.

Corrective Exercises:

These are also referred to as “pre-hab” exercises, presumably because if you do them, you won’t ultimately require “rehab” exercises.  Simply put, the idea is to strengthen weak areas that contribute to unhealthy movement patterns or poor posture.  In my case, and likely in the case of anyone with CF, this is primarily my thoracic spine.  Lung disease and chronic coughing cause the biomechanics of the chest wall to get messed up (to use a technical term).  The result is the “hunched” back and rounded forward shoulders we commonly see in each other.  Corrective work for this focuses on opening the anterior chest and shoulders with active stretching, and strengthening the muscles of the back that pull the shoulder blades back and down.

Movement Preparation (AKA active stretching):

This is the “warm up” part of the workout.  The goal for this portion of time is to actively work the areas of your body that you are about to engage.  You slowly start asking more of the heart and lungs as you begin using large muscle groups in a similar way to what you are about to ask of them.  For example, if this is a leg workout day, you might begin with some lunges, or body squats and add in some walking hamstring stretches.  If you are going to focus on bench pressing, simply pressing a very light weight for a few sets of 5-8 would be a great warm up.  If you are going for a walk or jog, beginning to do that exercise at a slow rate for a few minutes is the way to go.  It all depends on what you plan to focus on that day.

Strength Training or Cardio (metabolic conditioning):

I put these in the same category because I would suggest focusing on one or the other during a workout.  You can do this by alternating lifting days with cardio days. Alternately, you can do both at the same time by doing weight training in a circuit fashion, with little rest between exercises.  My favorite way of doing this these days is with kettlebells, which I will discuss in another article.

The main thing to remember here is to start small and slowly progress as your body adapts to the challenge.  If you want to be able to run a 10K, that is awesome, and you can do it!  But start with walking/jogging intervals which feel like work, but also feel good!  There is no better way to sabotage yourself than to rush your body faster than it can go.  How will you know if you are?  You won’t want to keep doing it.  When you start dreading your daily jog, you know you are pushing too hard.  As you very slowly start adding time to your workout, or lesson the periods of rest (if you are doing intervals), you get stronger and stronger.

Stretching (Passive):

Ah…this is what you’ve been waiting for.  The end of the workout!  You’ve done your last set, or run your last interval.  You want to grab your stuff and go fall on your couch.  But wait!  There’s more…

This is the time to do just a little bit of flexibility training.  Your muscles are warm and pliable…a perfect set up for some passive stretching.  Passive stretching just means holding a muscle in the stretched state for about 20-30 seconds.  This is what we normally think of as stretching. Spend just 5 minutes stretching those areas on your body that tend to be tight.  You don’t need to go through a whole yoga series here.  You know what you need.  I almost always need low back and hamstring stretches at this point.  I also find that this is the perfect time to lay across the foam roller lengthwise (so it is under my spine from my head to my butt) and open my arms to the side and let gravity open my chest.  Some deep, meditative breathing in this position is the perfect way to conclude the workout.

And before you hit the couch, don’t forget to eat!

 

 

 

 

 

My Weekend at the RKC

Today is a new day, and instead of focusing on what isn’t working (most of me), I am going to write about my experience at the RKC in Minnesota just two weeks ago (it seems like two years ago at this point).

For those who don’t know, RKC stands for Russian Kettlebell Challenge, and the weekend certification is an intense three day immersion into technique and proving that one is “worthy” of the title “RKC Instructor.”  It is not for wimps.

Kettlebells have been around for hundreds of years in Russia, but are relatively new to the scene here in the US. They were brought here by the Evil Russian, Pavel Tsatsouline, a former Soviet Special Forces physical training instructor.  He is known now as the modern King of Kettlebells, and it is his methodology that is taught by “official RKC’s.”  Since bringing the kettlebell to this country, Pavel’s proteges are found on the Secret Service, Counter Assault Team, among US Navy SEALS and Force Recon Marines.  And then, there’s Julie.

Now you may wonder, why would a 50-year-old woman with cystic fibrosis want to be in the company of men and women who are either hard core trainers or athletes or counter-terrorism experts?  Kidding on that last one…

Yeah…I wondered that, too.  Especially at the meet and greet that happened the night before it all began.  I was there by myself, of course (who would accompany me to this?).  I stood in the room looking around at the healthy, muscular men, all many many years younger than I, and the equally healthy and fit, excited young women…I was looking for some older faces.  Please God, don’t let me be the only old person AND the only half-assed lung person.

Don’t get me wrong.  People were friendly.  Everyone was incredibly friendly to me.  Not just friendly, but reassuring me that I wasn’t crazy to be there (oh, what they didn’t know).  Many, many older people come to these certifications, they assured me, and some even came just to meet a personal goal, like me, rather than to be over-prepared for their upcoming SEAL training.

Needless to say, I went to bed with just a mild bit of trepidation.  Would I pass?  Pass…hell, would I live through this?

When I say, “pass,” what I mean is to meet all of the requirements of the weekend.  This is not just to pass the dreaded “snatch test,” (A snatch is a move where the bell is brought -with one hand-from between the legs to over the head with a strait arm in one fluid motion. My challenge was to snatch a 12 kg kettlebell 100 times in 5 minutes, switching arms as needed.  BTW–12 Kg = 26 lbs).  Just FYI, if I were to go to the garage right now and try to snatch my 12 kg bell for reps, I might get in 3 or 4 before I had to stop and gasp for air).  The snatch test is what everyone fears.  It sucks.  Seriously…even for healthy people.  It is a test of muscular endurance and aerobic capacity for which one must train for months in advance.  It’s also a test of sheer will, and the ability to endure pain.

But wait, that’s not all.  In addition to the snatch test, women must do the arm hang for 15 seconds (cake), and a woman of my size has to show perfect technique in the double kettlebell  (52 lbs) swing, double clean, double squat, double press, and the  single snatch…all for five consecutive reps. In addition, one must show perfect technique on an unusual exercise with an equally unusual name, the Turkish Get-Up.  None of these were cake.  Instructors were very picky about perfect form…for good reason–if they were to send people out to teach with sloppy form, the whole RKC brand would be harmed.  Form is everything…it prevents injury and promotes safety.  Nobody passes without perfect form.

But even that is not all that is necessary to pass.  The hardest thing required is that you actually have to get through each day of grueling practice, random “punishments” for the whole group if someone messes up by wearing the wrong shoes or sitting with a flexed spine.  I’m serious…they are very serious.  The first of such punishments come early on Day One, when we had to walk around the block carrying our snatch test bell.  This is way harder than it looks. Here we go, with yours truly leading the pack:

And finally, there were “workouts” scattered throughout each day.  Each were short, only 10 to 20 minutes, but can you spell i-n-t-e-n-s-e?  I’m  blanking on most of them…I’m sure my brain is trying to spare me the memories.

Another requirement for passage was to demonstrate on the last day that we were capable of teaching what we had learned to bussed in “victims.”  These were volunteers from the community who “wanted” (read: they were bribed by great discount prices on Dragon Door products) to learn from newbie instructors about the latest greatest exercise craze.  We each got a victim to teach for 45 minutes, and then to workout for 10 minutes.  I had a great guy who already knew a fair amount.  I got lucky.

Finally…the last requirement…the “graduate workout.”  If you don’t complete it, you don’t pass.  It can take you all day if you need it, but you and your kettlebell (now your best friend) make your way up and back a huge field, stopping to swing and snatch away.  It took 40 minutes.  It was cold…I swear I saw snow (May 1, in St. Paul, MN).  I couldn’t feel my feet.  But when I completed that last swing, I was the happiest girl in Minnesota.  Heck, I wasn’t even the last one to finish!

Following the Grad Workout, we all waited with baited breath for our one-on-one meeting with our team instructors, for overall evaluation and the final decision…pass or “you’re fired!” (not really, if you don’t pass, you get a chance to work on your flaws and send in a video of you correctly performing the required exercise).  About 30% don’t pass.  These are athletes!  Seriously.

So, long story short:  Here is the evidence that I gave it my all:

 

This is after Day One.  I read somewhere that we did about a thousand swings on Friday.  I didn’t count, but I would believe it.  After I took this picture, I ordered room service because I literally could not move from the chair.  The bummer was that I could not sleep, 1) because I was on California time, and 2) I went into the weekend thinking the snatch test was on Day One.  Turns out they moved it to Day Three…so I was still nervous about whether I could do it…even more so actually, because I knew that by Sunday I might not be standing.

The morning of Day Two, I got out of bed with nary a single silent muscle fiber.  They were all screaming at me.  It reminded me of the day after the first day of basketball practice when I was in high school…only worse because I don’t believe I was fifty years old back then.  It didn’t help that I had to get up an hour early to do my treatment.  Yes…I did them all … except one.

Day Two went from 8 am to 7:30 pm.  Yes it did.  There was a 45 minute break for lunch and scattered water breaks through the day.  Also scattered through the day were more workouts, and more punishments.  Is this what military boot camp feels like? Learn and practice, all day, the clean, the press, the front squat, the snatch.  A favorite workout of mine this day (not) was called the “breathing ladder.”  Basically, it consisted of swinging the kettlebell for a given number of reps and then only resting for as long as it took to take a given number of breaths.  The reps increased, as did the number of breaths allowed, until we were all dying (not really). The purpose was to teach you how to slow down your breathing when stressed and breathe from the diaphragm.  A laudable goal, yet I don’t recommend this for anyone with a lung disease.  I did it, but the whole time I was wondering if I was about to desaturate right there on the floor.  I collapsed in the bathtub that night, wondering why the Holiday Inn bathrooms didn’t have those little strings you could pull for help, like they have in hospitals and assisted living centers.  I had only myself to blame.  No sleep again, but this time it was due to Prom night, and the collection of very drunk women who wanted to party in my hallway at 3am.  They were actually yelling.  I hope I never acted like that.

Day Three was there before I knew it.  I woke up determined to tape my hands in a way that would protect them from inevitable tearing during the snatch test.  I had read about this technique, and had brought with me all the requisite medical equipment.  I was a doctor, dammit.  I could help myself out a little.  Here is my beautiful tape job, done while inhaling salt (this is tricky, if you think about the number of hands required to 1) get taped, 2) do the taping, and 3) hold a nebulizer).

So when the day starts, we all gather in our teams, and our Team Leader, Andrea Chang, says, “I need to see all hands.”  I hold mine up, proudly.  She looks at me and says, “Take it off, I have to see the skin.”  What?  I was chagrined. My masterpiece…in the garbage.  Apparently, they needed to see intact skin before the testing was to commence.  If anyone had an open wound, they had to be taped.  This is where you might say…but you were taped, Julie.  Yes…  It didn’t help that when she looked at my hands, she said, “You don’t need tape…you’re good.”  Ha!  Good… At this point of the weekend, I was not good.  My lungs were GREAT, but everything else hurt like hell.

Go lungs.  And they did.  The tests came, and went.  Technique tests were a bit nerve-wracking, because you know they are watching every single hair on your head, every angle, every point of contact with the ground, every joint position.  It was more of a mental test than physical.  But, then came the moment of truth.  I run outside to do the snatch test…remember, 100 in 5 minutes.  I had done this once before, so I had a modicum of confidence.  Yet, this had been before my most recent bout of pneumonia, so it was a very tiny modicum.  I really didn’t know if I could.  I remember thinking as I bent down to get set up to start, (and I know this sounds corny, but it’s true), Kathy…Tom…I’m doing this for you guys, too.  And I started.  I don’t remember it really.  What I remember is that with 10 seconds left, I had to go ALL OUT to get the 100th done.  But, I did…there was no way I was going to end up with 97, or 98, or,God forbid, 99. And then I seriously sucked air for many, many minutes.

When the Graduate Workout time came later that day, I knew I could do it.  If I could pass the snatch test, I could do anything.  I had a lot of folks cheering me on, by this point.  It felt unbelievable.  I was strong. I was woman.  Did you hear me roar?

The whole thing was surreal.  The feeling of pride that came over me after the last swing was more immense than when I graduated from medical school.  It was the hardest thing I have ever asked my body, and my will, to do.  And I did it as a 50-yr-birthday present to myself.  When times get tough, as they kind of are now, even reading what I have written cheers me up.  I am tough.  I am a fighter.  CF will never win.  I will decide when to go back to my corner.

R…K…C!!!!

Why I Hate CF

I decided today that this Boot Camp posting thing has to be postponed, for now. I know when I am avoiding writing because I don’t want to face my blog that I need to change subjects.  Perhaps this is because I don’t feel like writing about how to “come back” from being sick in the midst of being sick.  Instead, I feel like ranting.  So here goes:

I’m in a bad mood.  I hate this disease.  I hate the fact that this is my third bout of pneumonia in less than eight months.  I just had this “cute” blog post idea of listing my seventeen-part day (with each part being a picture of each CF medical regimen item in my current plan to stay alive).  But I don’t feel like being cute.  I’m mad.  I know this shouldn’t be a blog topic on a site called “Sick And Happy.”  It’s only 50% appropriate.  But let’s face it, happy is only one side of a coin.  There is no happy without sad…or mad…or afraid.

This is when I wish I could call up my sister, Kathy and see how she did it.  Or my brother, Tom, and ask what his secret was.  But I can’t.  I have to find my own course of action.  For now, it is to write until the tears stop flowing and the dog gives up on trying to console me to go back to the couch and sleep.

There is nothing fair about a disease that consumes your entire day…and night.  That, no matter what you do to keep it at bay, never leaves you alone. There is no one to do it for you.

If this were really a blog about how positive psychology techniques can help you cope with chronic illness, I would now do something like count my blessings…or appreciate the fact that at least four lobes of lung tissue are relatively clear…or that, somehow, I have not lost any weight this time around.  Perhaps I would write a letter of gratitude to someone.  Or maybe I would write about my “best possible life” to cultivate some optimism.  No, not this time. Instead, I am going to practice a mindfulness technique.  I am going to be aware of every f’ing thing I hate about this disease, in list form.  Maybe I’ll come up with seventeen.

1) I hate that I can’t call up Kathy or Tom.

2) I hate that it is 11:09 in the morning, and I have yet to have time to eat breakfast because my entire day has been treatment and IV infusion focused.

3) I hate that I have to set an alarm in the middle of the night to stop my IV and flush my port.

4) I hate that I have a port, a week before a trip to Hawaii, where I will try to cover it up so other people won’t wonder what is wrong with me.

5) I hate that I can’t seem to gain any weight no matter how many milkshakes, Jack in the Box Grilled Bourbon BBQ Steak Sandwiches, and Boost Plus that I consume.

6) I hate that when my sons come home from school with a friend, they are embarrassed to find their mother lying on the floor, doing the Vest Boogie while infusing antibiotics.  ”Oh that?  My mom’s sick, that’s all.”  Unspoken is the fact that “other mom” is the picture of health and has more friends than God, and probably cooks hot meals every night.  Unfair.

7) I hate that I feel guilty that I want company at the same time that I don’t want anyone to see me at my lowest of lows.

I hate my lungs…every last lobe…down to every single alveolus.  I don’t know why this came out as a smiley.  Maybe God is talking to me.

9) I hate spending enough time on the toilet to count the tiles on the floor, wondering how painful it is going to be to conclude this particular event.

10) I hate worrying about traveling now, wondering if something bad is going to happen far, far away from my CF clinic.

11) I hate not being able to hug my father, who once-upon-a-time had a MRSA skin infection.

12) I hate the fact that I am paranoid about even visiting him at his home in a retirement center, because such places are havens for resistant bacteria.

13) I hate that I have to get mad at my oldest son for not covering his mouth and nose at any slight eruption of air.  And he never remembers, so…I get mad a lot.

14) I hate wondering when the inevitable downslide is going to really get going, and how I am going to cope, and what my kids will think.

15) I hate that every time I get sick now, I need an entire team of specialists (or House) to figure out what to do with my lungs, my liver, my kidneys, my psyche.

16) I hate needing so many people so much of the time…doctors, partner, friends that I don’t want to ask for help, siblings.

17) I hate that today is a great day for Little League baseball, and it doesn’t even sound fun.

I’d better stop.  Seventeen hates…seventeen self-care items per day.  Sounds balanced.  Tomorrow will be a better day, and maybe I’ll feel like being cute.

Disclaimer…and DAY ONE

The following twenty-one blog posts will be taken from the e-book-to-be that I wrote two years ago.  As I stated before, I wrote them as chapters in a book, which then sat on my computer for…two years.  Since each of these has to be slightly modified, and since there is no way I’m going to be able to post daily after  a six months hiatus, I thought I needed to write this brief disclaimer.  My goal is to get each post up, and then bundle them together into a pdf package which will become my “gift” when people sign up to be on my email list.  I know that there is a way to post date the posts…such that I could load them all and time them to go out sequentially.  However, that sounds like such a daunting task that I’m pretty sure I would lose steam and it would sit for another two years.  Therefore, it will take longer than 21 days to get the entire Boot Camp up on this site.

So if you are planning to start today (and if you are, hooray for you), there is a slight modification.  Each day, simply repeat the exercises for the previous post until the next post.   It won’t hurt anything at all.  You will still get stronger and healthier, it will just be stretched out in time a bit. It may get a bit weird if I ask you to journal about a specific thing.  In that case, you can either just read what you wrote the first day, or take the opportunity to expand on it.  If one day, I ask you to do a meditation, you’d simply repeat it, or maybe prolong it a bit.  Get it?  Okay, here we go:

Ready, Set….GO

DAY ONE

I am sure you have seen the “YOU” books at your local bookstore:  “YOU: The Owner’s Manuel,” “YOU: On a Diet,” “YOU:  Staying Young,” You: Staying Young Workout,” “YOU: On a Walk.”  Drs. Oz and Roizen have quite a thing going.

I have a proposal.  On this first day of Boot Camp, you get to describe “YOU:  Your Best Self.”  It is very hard to stay on track and reach a destination without knowing exactly where you are trying to go. This very important first exercise today is to define your vision for you own wellness. Later, we will work on defining your path to this destination.  This isn’t what your parents or spouse or doctors want of you.  This is what you want.

Now, I want you to get out a pencil or pen and some paper (hopefully somewhere you can return to easily…not the back of a receipt or junk mail).  Take a few long, slow breaths, and start describing your best self.  Be completely honest regarding your potential. Be realistic, but also be courageous enough to stretch a little.  What do you look like?  How do you feel?  What is your expression?  What are you doing?  Who are you with? What are you wearing?  Where are you?  How are you spending your days?  What is important to you?

Just keep writing.  Don’t stop to spell check.  Don’t worry about grammar.  Pretend that you are painting a picture with words.  Leave out no detail.

Done?  Are you sure?  Go back and read it just to see if you left anything out.  As you read and imagine yourself as this person in your “word picture.” How do you feel?  Excited?  Nervous?  Not sure you can do this?  That would be perfectly normal.  It can be daunting to really reflect on your true potential.

Now pick out the ONE most important aspect of this vision.  It could be the smile on your face.  It could be that you are working at a very different job than you currently have.  Maybe it is that you are swimming the English Channel.  Just pick out the ONE thing, and write it down.  Is there a connection between this thing and the other parts of your vision?  This is frequently the case.

Good.  Now what is the reason that you picked that one thing over the others?  Why is this thing so important to you?  Keep asking yourself “why?” until something resonates as a “Yes, that’s it!  That is why!”  Here is what I mean:

I want to be a certified kettlebell instructor.  Ok, Julie, why is this important?

Because I set this as a fitness goal when I was depressed about being sick and needed motivation.  Okay, why did you set this as your goal?

Because this is an intense training that even “normal” people have a very hard time completing.  And why is it important that you complete something difficult for healthy people?

Because I want to feel healthy for as long as I can.

Ah ha!  You see how this works?

When you come to your “ah ha” write it down in BOLD print.  This is your motivator (or motivators if you have more than one answer to “why?”) for the next 21 days.  When you get discouraged, or tired, or you think about quitting, come back to this main REASON (S) I AM DOING THIS.

 

LONG-TERM GOALS

 

All right, now get a new sheet of paper.  Come up with four to five long-term goals that will get you closer to the VISION that you just described.  I want these to be action goals…things that you will be doing regularly in one year, which will put you firmly on the path to your vision.  So, for instance, don’t write, “I will be a famous pop star.”  Instead, it would be something like, “I will write music two hours a day, and sing publicly three nights a week.”  “I will eat a peanut butter and honey sandwich every night before bed” would be much better than “I will weight 10 lbs. more than I do now.”

Try to have your goals cover several different dimensions of wellness.  They could have to do with exercise (hint), nutrition, stress management, relationship, disease management, intimacy, work/play balance, communication, cognitive or emotional patterns, spirituality, or finding meaning.  Or maybe you have other categories I haven’t listed.  Pick a few that seem most important to work on at this stage of your life.

Don’t overdo it here.  People like to set goals.  It’s fun.  But if you set too many, the chances that you will achieve them diminish greatly.  Less is more.  Pick at least three, but no more than five, goals.  Make sure they are SMART.

• Specific:  If you are going to start exercising, exactly what will you do, how many days/week, and for how long?
• Measurable:  You need to be able to know with 100% certainty when you have achieved your goal.  For instance, completing a 5K jog is measurable.  “Becoming a jogger” is not.
• Actionable:  The goal needs to be something that you can do, or that takes action on your part.  An example is “I will call a friend weekly,” not, “I will be liked by my friends.”
• Realistic:  I’m 50, with CF, and I sink.  I should not, for instance, have the previously mentioned goal of swimming the English Channel.
• Time Bound:  There needs to be an end point.  If not, we either procrastinate, or forget what we are trying to accomplish.

 

WELL-BEING TRACKING SHEET

 

Now, you need another sheet of paper.  You may want to do this on a spreadsheet software program, but you can also just do it by hand.

If you want to do it yourself, make a grid, with 21 columns (days) across the top horizontally, and up to five rows vertically.  The name of each row is going to be ONE action item that you deem essential to do every day in order to make a darn good start at meeting your long-term goals.

Here is why.  If you do these things every day for 21 days, you have created a habit, a good habit that will hopefully carry you forward throughout the year as you begin to bring your Wellness Vision to life.

As a rough guide, try to come up with at least one action item for each long-term goal.  For example, while I was on my IV antibiotics, my vision was that I was running another half-marathon with my friend before the end of 2008.  My long-term goal in line with this vision was to be running (walk/jogging) four days per week, with one long run of up to 10 miles per week by the time of the race.  During my infusions, my daily action items to put me on the path toward this goal were to walk 30 minutes every day, and to do alternating days of 30 minutes of gentle yoga or lower body resistance work.

Ok, the tracking sheet is your final piece of mental/paperwork today.  Good job.  All you have left to do now is prepare to begin your action steps tomorrow.  Do you need to find your walking shoes?  Do you need to go to the grocery store?  Do you need to create a peaceful spot to meditate?  Whatever it is, finish up today by making all the preparations.

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